In the recent weeks after the birth of Piper I feel like every time I sit down to write a blog post I am at a complete loss for words. I just stare at what seems to be a giant cursor flashing at me. Then I will finally write a few words then delete them, write a few more words then delete them, until I just give up and sign off. The truth is, I have been feeling like a failure because I am not keeping up on checking off all the boxes on my goal list and these days are feeling like anything but slow and simple.
The truth is, my daily goals should really be like this:
– Brush your teeth
– Put on real clothes
– Feed your family
– Leave the house more
then once a week
I am realizing that my obsession with checking off goals and perfection are creeping back into my life disguised as a plan for the opposite. I realize I need to wake up every morning and be like Elsa, “Let it Go” (sorry, bad joke- I know). My ultimate goal this year is to live more intentionally, not be the best task checker. So there are dishes in the sink, the laundry pile has it’s own zip code, and I am living in hats these days….let it go. At the end of the day or the end of my life no one will care if my house was tidy or that I finished my March Powersheets. What will matter is that I was present for my family when they need me the most.
As we become more settled as a family of four and I prepare for my maternity leave to officially end in two weeks, I realize with each season of life it’s necessary to re-evaluate your goals and make sure they still direct you to what matters most. So as things are a little quieter over here, I am digging deeper to look at my goals, letting go of the unnecessary, letting go of the busyness, and trying to figure out what the next steps for me and my family will be. I do know that change is on the horizon. Change can be scary but sometimes you have to take that scary step to get to where you really want to be.